Hey you guys,
So one thing i’ve been learning lately is to cling to Jesus and praise him in the pain. This has notttttt been a fun lesson. It’s been hard. The past few weeks have been full of so many emotions and doubts. One thing I have had to really hold onto is that Jesus is who he says he is and he does what he says he is going to do and that his plans are so much better than my own. Woosh that was a run on sentence. I know that’s a lot and that’s also easier said than done. When you’re hurting, or confused, or both, it’s hard to believe that God is good, or that he is close to the brokenhearted, or that he is working ALL things for your good like he said he was going to do. Just being honest, it’s been hard for me to believe those things lately. Pain is so real and the enemy really likes to use that against us. He really takes advantage of those moments to make us doubt God’s goodness and love towards us. He wants us to just sit in our pain and remain stuck there and believe all the stupid lies that Jesus is so far and that he doesn’t care or that there is no hope.
But there is hope. And I just want to remind y’all (and myself, because I really need to hear this tonight) ….that God is good even when it hurts and it’s hard to believe it. He is good even when the pain is our fault. He is good when the pain is so real and you don’t know how you are going to make it through the day. He is good and faithful when you are unfaithful. He is good when the tears are falling and your heart is breaking. He is near and so present. He is there right beside you in your hurt and pain. He is catching every tear as it falls and is loving you with an unending love.
It’s so easy to shove the pain deep down inside and not deal with it. That’s just kinda what we humans tend to do when things aren’t going too great. Or at least that’s what Haley tends to do when things aren’t going too great. But one thing I have intentionally done over the past couple of weeks as I have been going through some things in my life is to walk through the pain and embrace it. I realized the only way around the pain is through it. And the only way I can make it through it is by clinging to Jesus.
Yes, embracing the pain is hard. Pain brings tears and i’ve shed a lot of tears lately. A lot. But i’m not ashamed of that. I’m thankful for that. A lot of healing has come with it. I am super thankful that those lies I was talking about earlier are just that…lies. I am thankful that in the moments when I am really hurting and the tears are flowing that Jesus IS near and he IS catching every tear and he IS my comforter.
He is good and He cares. He cares about the smallest things and longs to hear our hearts. It’s totally okay to be real with God and tell him what you’re feeling and about how much what you are going through hurts. God and I have had a lot of honest heart to heart talks lately. And you know, sometimes I find that I don’t even know how to tell God how I am feeling. But what’s really neat is that he knows us better than we know ourselves. He knows what we are trying to say even when we can’t put it into words. There is major comfort in that, my friend.
Pain hurts. It comes in all shapes and sizes. It can come in the form of a broken heart, death, divorce, a lost friendship, depression…I could go on and on. But y’all Jesus does not waste anything. ANYTHING. Jesus is so capable of using those painful things to teach you and others more about Him and who you are in Him. He uses those things for his glory. And in the moment when the pain is so unbearable it’s hard to even wrap your mind around all that (so am there right now). But y’all, there is so much hope in that fact that he CAN use it for his glory and our good. Choose to cling to that hope and praise him for that.
So yeah, there’s that. I needed to remind myself of all that and I pray that the Lord can use those truths to encourage you if you’re dealing with some pain and are kinda in the same boat as me right now. I hope it encourages you to know that you are not alone. I’m right there with ya. I have the same doubts and questions as you do. My prayer is that we will trust that his plans are better and walk through the painful seasons of life clinging to Jesus and praising him for who He is despite what we feel.
He is good even when it hurts.
much love- Haley Nicole